How did the servant with the least amount of talents perceive His master? Have you ever felt like God didn’t give you as much talent or ability as He’s given to others? Have you ever buried your abilities because you didn’t think they mattered? Has not using your God-given abilities impact your sense of purpose or your relationship with God? If so, how?
The bible says he was afraid of him. He knew he was a hard man, unfair and sowing and
gathering that which wasn’t his.
I definitely think I’ve felt like God didn’t give me as much talent or ability as He’s given to others. But in that same sense, I feel that the talents He has given me are less subtle and more internal: empathy, encouragement, a praying heart. The ways people state I’ve been used I don’t see because I didn’t really do anything. That doesn’t mean I haven’t been insanely jealous over the talents or abilities He’s given others. I still struggle with it. And I’ve definitely probably buried abilities because I didn’t think they mattered. I’ve spent so much time over the past 40 years trying to do things that don’t come naturally to me and be someone that doesn’t come naturally to me, but rather trying to be what I think everyone wants from me that I can’t possibly have used my abilities. It has a definite effect on my relationship with God as well. I feel dissatisfied, discontent and like a failure because I haven’t been who He has created me to be. Each time that I try to be someone else, I feel horrible after because the things I do aren’t the real me. And then I feel like a failure for not just being who God created me to be, which makes my confidence drop and….it’s a vicious cycle! I wish I were strong enough to stand.
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