When you get overwhelmed, do concerns ever consume you? If so, what does that look like in your head and heart?
I wish I could say no, but I can’t. It looks obsessive. Once I become overwhelmed I tend to not be able to turn back the thoughts. I cry – A LOT. I can’t let go. I become physically sick and I vacillate from not being able to get out of bed (or having to force myself out) and not being able to sit still because at least if I’m moving something might change. My heart feels lonely and broken and hurt and sad. My head is angry and wants to take it out on everything that comes in my path. Yet, most tragically, that is only while I’m in my home. Once I walk out the door, I put that cracked mask on hoping it holds together so people won’t know how truly overwhelmed I am.
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