If Jesus came to your house this past week to spend time with you, would you have been able to walk away from unfinished laundry, dishes, or emails if He wanted to talk with you? Imagine hearing Him say, “You are worried and upset about many things.” What were some of your many things?
I absolutely would be able to walk away from all those things, because I’ve been walking away from them for months! My problem would be that I couldn’t allow Him to come in. We’d stand at the front door, with it closed behind so He couldn’t see in and talk while I obsessed and hoped He didn’t notice how bad the grass needs to be cut, how high the weeds are, and everything behind the door, etc.
I am worried and upset about many things: the house is a disaster; there are high cost things that need to be fixed; the house is probably going to be taken from me, then what do I do – go to Mom’s where stress will be high but cost will be low or look for something else when I really can’t afford it; I can’t afford my son’s meds and the mortgage/rent; the med themselves – how long do we stay on them, do we try the behavioral one, drug interaction, will he ever be able to live without them; I keep leaving things undone to do other things; my daughter’s coming home from college and I don’t know how I feel because she doesn’t respect me or my rules and she is teaching my son things I don’t want him to know; my other daughter is seldom home and I’m angry because I feel like she’s chosen her friends over me and I know this is her senior year and she won’t get these chances back, but I won’t get this time with her back either and I feel left out; I can’t get the school and the doctors to agree with what my son needs to be successful and aren’t I suppose to know what that is, but I’m so confused by the differing points of view; I don’t like all the changes in education and they’re making me lose my desire to do my job; I can’t decide if I like teaching kindergarten again since being told I’d be better in a more academic grade; I don’t know what I’m going to do tomorrow much less next year; should I get a second job (need more money vs. what it will take of me from my son); I could go on all day…
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