Choose what is better

"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!” “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:38-42 NIV)

Oh Lord, how I know this verse and what it means!  Yet I get so caught up in trying to get it all done and get ahead.  I'm so afraid of letting someone down.  I'm so afraid of letting you down.  You have provided these opportunities for me and I fear that if I don't succeed in them that somehow people who look down on me will look down on you.  "She believes in God but she can't get a simple project done.  She's not a real Christian."  As I write it, I laugh because I see the ludicrousness of what I just said.  Oh how you must shake your head when you watch me or listen to my thought process.  

This year, you have placed obstacle in my life that are making me leave work WAY earlier than usual.  For the start of the year, I had no work computer at home so I couldn't do much at home.  Yet it all got done.  Maybe not as beautifully or as intricately.  Maybe I didn't spend 2 hours searching for just the right activity, but they are still learning.  My classroom is still up and running.  Help me put down the work and pick up my book, play a board game, call that friend, send a care package, engage in people through you.  Few things are needed.  Help me choose what is better.  Amen.