As I was typing the reflection to my bible study/devotion today, I was thinking how my thoughts might help others. And I remembered that I have this blog and I let my time get away from me or I put my thoughts elsewhere, when this is what it was created for. So while it is still today, it's time to repurpose this and if other can be comforted or even blessed by my words, then Lord guide them to it. If not, then thank you for a place for me to publically proclaim your name. And thank you for all you are teaching me and stirring within me.
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34 NIV)
One day at a time. Words I grew up hearing thanks to the Friends of Bill influences on my daddy. Lord, lately it is with resignation that I say I can't handle any more than that. Life becomes so overwhelming and full of "stuff" that I can't think further than a day because it causes emotional and sometimes even physical distress. But Abba, you want us to live in today. I wish that my purpose for living in today was because I wanted to so fully enjoy it rather than out of fear for what comes after it. Lord, you have blessed me with a peace beyond understanding for my life lately. Even in the moments that are out of control, reminding myself that YOU are IN control has helped me to get through. And I thank you for that gift....more than words can say. But help me to do more. Help me not just "get through" each day. Help me to enjoy each day. I know me, Lord, and what I'm asking can only be done through you. Even as I'm sitting here thinking that I want every day to be a testimony to you and your will, I am beginning to put pressure on myself to do more, to be more, to serve more, to study more. And just as the thoughts come into my head I can sense the dread of time. Lord, help it not be about more. Maybe it's about different. A different approach or attitude to what is already in my life? Different activities - getting rid of some of what now is for what should be? Or just a different view - from your eyes instead of mine? It's funny, because as those first thoughts putting pressure on myself came into my head, I also heard, "that's not what He asked of you." Just a quiet breath chasing behind the taskmaster thoughts. Thank you, Abba. Thank you for speaking to my heart before I have the chance to go over the top. Thank you for the gift of today....the present you give us daily. As I unwrap it, help me to be content in it, to enjoy it, to make the most of it, and to see the YOU in it. And may I share my gift so that I am. It the only one blessed by it. In you name I pray. Amen.
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