What is the craziest thing you have ever done for love? (I answered this for not just romantic love, but even love of friends/family)
Ignored who I am and became/did (or tried to) whoever/whatever others wanted me to be/do. I’ve tried to let go and just be who I think I’m wanted or expected to be; to the point that I’ve not been sure who I really am. I’ve turned myself upside down and inside out trying to be worthy of love and turned up alone and empty every time.
I also have the bad habit of cyber stalking people to be more involved in their life. Like somehow if I know what’s going on that makes me a part of it or they’ll give me a chance to more a part of things. I guess you could add “stalking” to that too, then, because before we had the cyber methods, I still just hung around in places I didn’t belong or wasn’t really a part of just hoping I might get invited in from the sidelines to the real goings on. Yet, ironically, if I ever did I was so overcome with anxiety (getting in trouble, doing/saying something wrong, etc.) that I couldn’t enjoy being part of things. I see the same thing in my relationship with my daughters. I want so much to be a part of things that they end up embarrassed by me.
I've also allowed people to do things I knew were wrong; like physically or emotionally hurt me; just to hold on to them. I've made myself worthless in the hope of being worthy.
I sacrifice my time, my needs...me to be who others want me to be.
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