Have you ever blown it and felt like God was ready to give up on you? Do you sometimes doubt God’s grace and patience with you? If so, describe what happens and how doubt perpetuates more doubt and distance from God.
Daily I’ve blown it, but I’ve never felt like God was ready to give up on me. I’ve wonder why He hasn’t, but I’ve never felt like He did. As for doubting God’s grace and patience, I think more often my doubt is based on why God and I can’t want the same things. I know that God has a plan for me and that I don’t always walk in the path that leads to that plan. When I ask why, I never doubt that God is there, but why does the path have to be so hard? Why can’t I get my will aligned with His? Why can’t He just give me what I want, “just this once”? It still perpetuates doubt and distance because the enemy whispers that I’ll never be who God wants me to be, but I know in my heart that God is waiting on me. That of course, then creates more feelings that I’ve blown it. I just get so angry with myself that God has to be so patient. I’m supposed to be submissive to Him. I’m supposed to always live my life for His will, yet I fall so often! I don’t know how He can be so patient, because it’s so not in my human nature. But His ways are not my ways, thank goodness, and He is stronger than me. J His grace is enough! J
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