Have you ever prayed for God to change your circumstances and instead He changed you through your circumstances? If so, describe what happened and how it helped you grow closer to Him.
I think the biggest case of this would be my singleness. I prayed for years for God to change my circumstances and send me the perfect man for me – a strong believer, with confidence in Whose he was, with financial security, etc. Instead, God has changed me to show me the benefits of being single and to show me that through my singleness, my dependence on Him is greater. He showed me that I have a hard time sharing my attention and my focus especially because I lack such self-confidence. I constantly am trying to make the others in my life happy, and although I don’t want to risk my relationship with God at all, it tends to happen because I don’t know how to be all things to all people. I spread myself too thin for those I care about and put Him last. I still have moments of weakness where I long for a spouse – someone to hold me and tell me it will be okay; someone to be intimate with; someone other than me to help with decisions; someone to take us some of the slack. I still would like to find someone “to do life with” someday, but for now, I am okay with how things are. I see God working in my life to provide for my every need, I see the blessings in my singleness and most of all I know His unconditional, all encompassing love is just what I need. I trust His plan for me.
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