Describe an area of your life, or role you have, where you feel like a wimp and you want God to make you a warrior. Through dependence on Him, what would it look like for you to be “more than a conqueror through Him who loves you” (Rom. 8:37) in that area or role?
One area where I feel like a wimp is with daily life. I so want to be a blessing in others’ lives. I don’t ever want to be a burden on anyone. And I want to serve God. That being said, I tend to let people walk on me, I take on too much, I’m afraid to stand for what I believe in, I’m never sure what His path is for me. I even crumble at having to call to rectify financial situations because I’m afraid of rejection; that my reason for failing won’t be good enough, that they won’t care, that I know I’m wrong. I reach a point where I physically get overwhelmed and sick from it all, I keep myself up too late/get up too early trying to fit it all in/make it all work, which in turn takes an additional toll on my body, my pulse races and I just don’t even know what to do. I want to be a warrior in life instead of such a wimp.
If I could become (or when I become because I have faith in my God who is with me) more than a conqueror, I would hear God’s voice when I try to make the decision what to do and what not to. I wouldn’t feel like I have to make a split second decision, but rather would be able to take a step back and give it to God and wait on an answer. I would not be as impulsive, but be more reflective. I would not be so hurt because I’m too meek to speak up, but I’d be bold. I would be able to admit that I’m human and can’t do it all. I would pick up that phone and get the forgiveness and the help I need to provide for my family. I would not pack my days so full and I would procrastinate less. I would learn to say no…to someone other than just myself and God. I would know the difference from the path God wants me to take and going down a path just because it will help someone. I would be bold and courageous.
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