Do you ever feel you are the only one who struggles with insecurity or doubt? Why or why not?
I don’t know that I’ve ever felt that I’m the only one who struggles with insecurity or doubt, but I know I often feel alone with MY insecurity or doubt. Most people I know of that I see struggling, it’s because they have had a horrible incident in their childhood or now. I didn’t. My childhood wasn’t horrible. I had 2 parents. We lived in a nice area and I was provided a comfortable lifestyle. There was stuff going on with my dad being so sick, but I didn’t really know the extent of all that until I was older. And now, I’m surrounded by married couples with healthy children and 2 incomes (even if they’re small) or the single people I know are either in a relationship (so not really single) or much older. The latter don’t have children living at home, the former has someone to lean on. So I feel very isolated in that because I’m alone, with children that have issues and work so hard but can’t make ends meet. I think somehow I’ve been convinced that if you are married it gives you someone who knows what goes on behind the closed doors. Not necessarily easier, but someone sees behind the mask. The older singles I know seem to travel in groups, but I don’t fit in to their groups. I know others struggle with insecurity and doubt. Ironically, I work hard to pray for and encourage those struggling, yet somehow I can seem to find that same encouragement, nor do the words I share with them seem to heal or help my own hurting heart.
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