“When we focus our attention on ourselves, we turn our attention away from God. We leave no room in our thoughts to listen to what He is thinking about us, because we have given that place away to be occupied by other people’s opinions” (p.87) . Whose thoughts do you tend to focus on the most throughout your day – yours, others’, or God’s?
I start each day trying to focus on God, but then I feel like the shift comes quickly and without me even noticing. I worry about getting my daughter to the bus stop (it’s 5:40am and we don’t live in the most desirable area for her to go alone) and disappointing her or letting her down because that’s going to put my mom out. Then I get caught up in getting to work at 6:30am so that I can get on the work track of trying to get everything done. (Since I’ve started this study, I’ve been leaving a little later some days and without stressing – is it the study or the illnesses going through my house? I choose a little of both. The illnesses have slowed us down, the study has helped me realize that it’s not the end of the world.) Once I get to work, I want to focus on being God’s vessel and doing His will, but I get so caught up in all the mandates and wanting to do a good job and I feel I just lose sight. I do often take a moment (sometime multiple times) throughout the day to talk to God. I really am trying to break the habit, but I’m not there yet. I want His opinion to be the only one that matters. I do truly believe that it I live in Him and do what He chooses that it will benefit ALL my life. I need to work on strengthening my resistance to the temptation of finding my worth in others and what they say.
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